After 11 years working at a nonprofit I care about deeply, from starting fresh out of college in 2005, through more than a decade of projects, training, personal growth, and professional achievement, the time has come for me to leave that which is deeply familiar to me, and move on to new endeavors – focusing primarily on my children as a stay-at-home mom, and also re-focusing on my art. Plus hopefully regaining some of my sanity points in the process. 🙂
Inspiration: Zefrank’s Invocation for Beginnings
When I feel deeply afraid of the risk of putting myself out there and trying something new I find a lot of energizing power from watching ZeFrank‘s 2012 video Invocation on Beginnings. Thanks, ZeFrank for producing such a powerful message.
As I move to being a full-time stay-at-home mom I know that I’ll make mistakes – I’ll yell at the wrong time, I’ll make a tough choice that I thought was right at the time that later turned out to be wrong. I’ll cry, my kids will cry. Motherhood is a new kind of challenge every day, but what I do know is that I am going to do my best. I’m going to try to be the best mom I can be – hugs every day, making sure my kids feel loved, special, and listened to, and that I help them grow into themselves. I dream of afternoons filled with laughter and art projects, kid baking projects, many library trips, reading together, loving, and living.
As I move to pursue my art (albeit part-time, since I’ll be chasing those kids around 🙂 ), that prospect also frightens me. My comics, my watercolors, there are so many incredible and deeply talented artists in the world, and it can be hard to feel like I need to try to compete. But art isn’t a competition. Whatever I do – whatever I make – the process of making it, caring about it, just trying to be myself – I need to remind myself that that will be good enough.
What will be will be. And I’m ready to get started with this new beginning.
Hope you feel good facing any new beginnings in your life!